Ooh, so I saw Travis after school today. And it was all going fabby, then I saw that the wallpaper on his phone was a picture of a rather pretty girl. Intrigued, I kept that in my mind. Then later when he was teasing me about Dan, I brought it up, wanting to know who I could tease him about. So I was like 'who's the girl on your phone?'
And he was like 'yeah, I like her. So you could tease me about her.'
'Is it like, something mutual?'
'Yeah, I have been dating her for a short while now.'

Ohh. Heart sank right to my feet, but I tried so hard to keep a smile on my face, and I tried so hard to carry on indifferently. I'm not sure how well that worked, but he probably picked up on it. He didn't mention anything though.

But he's just so so lovely, and I don't want him to be with some clever pretty person. I want him to be with me. Me, the one with the troubled past who is amazingly self obsessed. And part of me is saying, that all I want is him, no one else. And that I would give up anything for him.

But what makes him so good?? I have no idea. Honestly, I guess he's just like any other guy. Except when he talks, it feels like I'm the only person in the world that matters to me. And when he looks at me, anything could happen, and his touch could just carry me through.

Wow, I need to get a life.